2 months in 2023

Two entire months today. How can that be? It seems like yesterday. And there’s still so long to live without you .

I suppose reality has sunk in. My world may have come to a full halt, but the rest of it hasn’t and I have to figure out how to catch up.

The police still have your phone. I’m so frustrated. I’ve left messages, sent emails, spoken to so many different people & departments .. except the one I need to contact me back. It irritates me because it’s like this last part of you that isn’t home.

Idk how I’m going to hang on to the apartment, pay the bills, and put food on the table. This month the bills are going unpaid … next month we’ll go hungry to catch up on bills.

There’s only so much I can do on my pension and disability. I’ll figure it out. Isn’t that what everyone says? I’m strong and all that bullshit.

Reality, Babes, reality. You’re gone. I’m here. What the fuck ever.