Colposcopy and Robin Williams in Friends With the Benedicts

So I'm pretty upset bout Robin Williams' suicide. I mean really? Fuck! My Mom was a HUUUUGE Mork and Mindy fan.. and she is extremely upset. I just dunno what to say bout it. It sucks.

Today/'morrow I have my colposcopy at the Seton Center. I dunno what to expect. I mean, I have looked it up so I am fairly knowledgeable but I mean will it hurt? They have to take several biopsies of the lesions right? I am already riiiiiight on the edge of starting my period. I thought I was gonna before the appt. but nope, turns out it's just showing me why I need this all along. Cramping for NO reason at all! And I mean BAD cramping, like first day period kind. I wipe and am surprised not to find anything. But it's actually good because I dunno if they can do it when I am bleeding. So, it all worked out. I have been getting very tired from the MS and sleeping/napping weird hours so I am up at weird ones too. So I guess I will stay up until the appt. I've been getting yeast infections every month right before my period and I wanna talk to them about that because I used to never get them. It is miserable and I only have 1 refill left on my Diflucan the doc called in for me. I am just trying to deal with it this time and save it for another time when it's as bad as the first I originally had to have the med called in. Ugghhhh not looking forward to this! I wanna know how big the thing is they wanna stick in me. I mean, even tho I have been with a lot of people, I have been in a marriage for 14 years and the sex has plateaued. It's mutual, so no animosity, but as a result I have, shall we say, shrunk? LOL. I am tighter. More tight than I think I have ever been. And I just want to know what to expect. They say that also the fact that I haven't had kids doesn't help. Oh well... I guess if I feel like it I will come back and update. At least in the next few. Bye!!

Steph