Panic in Torridaussity Two

I had a panic attack at work Thursday. I’m not sure of the exact trigger, but full blown couldn’t breath uncontrolled crying frozen in my chair unable to speak. Thank goodness the teacher knows how to handle someone in one and talked me down. I’m really questioning if I’m really healing or if I’m pretending life is ok when it really isn’t. In some good news D is stepping up a bit albeit slowly but things have been better. The rest of my life seems to be turning into a dumpster fire. Friday I got an email saying as of May29th I’m expected to return full duty…my doc will not allow it so now I’m worried my job is at stake just what I needed to hear. Sorry I’m pretty absent but we can clearly see I’m a mess at the moment.