Am I Really A Horrible Person? in Me Being Me

Since I have been living here the landlady has done less and less and I have been getting sicker and sicker. And it’s all because of the weight I gained and I blame that on the landlady. Because the less she fixes things the more depressed I get and the less I really care about me or anything else or even anyone else. And anything that can go wrong with me is going wrong. I saw my last blood test and it looks like my cholestral is up and my sugars is up and of course my blood pressure is up. And hubby went the other day to tell the landlay if the furnace filter can be put in and if the dead wood bugs can be fixed. And that was a month agio for the filter and about 4 days for the bugs. And it looks like where the work bench is there is dead bugs all along the wood area
And I also need to start taking probiotics.
Is there anyone who can do like a which spell on my landlady and either poke her with needles or do a spell where she has things go wrong with her upstairs home like thing leak and things get mold and bugs start to fall out of the ceiling and the furance braks because it has never been serviced? Let me know if can do this then she will know exactly how I feel and maybe she can get depressed and get fat and maybe her dog will die because she is too lazy to feed it and maybe it will shit in her bed and in the rest of the house.
But I do know something will happen to her and it won’t be good and all i can say is that Karma is a bitch and what goes around comes around and it’s your turn now.
There has never been a person where I didn’t or don’t care about weather the live or die and who I wish wasn’t so selfish or uncarring about others well being.
And everyday so far since she has been keeping the heat down in the night and the mornings I have woken up cold and I keep waking up during the night so I am not getting a good sleep. In fact I think I have had only one good nights sleep since I have been here. And I can see what it’s doing to me.
But whatever..I don’t think the landlady really cares about me or hubby because she never fixes anything in a timely manner and when she does it’s always worse and costs more to fix.

Onto something else…

My plan for today is to do some laundry because the underwear and socks are running out and the jeans so if I do at least two loads then half of everything will get done. And I also want to get the beds changed and have a shower with nice hit water that is wasted and goes down the drain. The landlady hates that so that is why I do it.
And dinner I am thinking chicken done in the airfryer along with some rice and fresh vegetable.

Well I really should stop here…
Do have a great day…
Be Kind, Be Calm, Be Safe and Behave.

Last updated May 02, 2023