it is so cold. and hypothermia. *ED* in The Wonderland Years: 2014. Done.

Ok so before I start i'ma state that i'm anorexic. [well we knew that]. I've been for um 13 yrs. [i'm 26 btw i'll be 27 this month]. and so my anorexia has led to osteopenia [which really has nothing to do w/ this entry] and bad circulation as of late. and other things. [it's funny ironic that people think i'm healthy. which clearly.......yeah. no it's just my dr.s have never known about this].

Ok so. when i got back from my mom's tonight at. um. like around 8 it was 75 in my room. i closed the window. it got up to 77. it's now [at 10 to 1 a.m.] 78. yeah anything in the 70's is cold to me. curse my bad circulation.

So on. yesterday er i mean no yeah that's right. it'd be yesterday. [it's not the next day till it's 1 a.m. in my book] my family and i went up to my grandmother's cabin in the mtns. [i'm in CO btw]. it was 60 up there. just as it was in Denver. but. i wasn't moving. as in i was sitting. i'm pretty sure i was mildly hypothermic. just as it was on...........um. Tues. the last time i saw evan. [not that it's been all that long but it feels like it has]. yeah that was worrisome. we were outside. i got up went into the mall walked around got warmer. actually it worries me more that on. yesterday when we were up at the cabin and i was cold i was too cold to move. i didn't rationalize that. as opposed to on Tues. when i'm like 'yeah no i should move'.

it's been raining here lately.

yeah so the other day Stephanie remarks on how hot my room is. yeah i know that's what i like about it. the house to me is cold. it's like 60 in the rest of the house. yeah so the bus had AC on and i was cold from that. see it's ok if i can actually move like if i'm at the mall or a store and it's on. and then i come back and it's cold in the house too.

last spring i almost died from hypothermia. it's, not something i write about a lot if ever. so you can see why i'm more worried about being too cold then too hot.

um. i really don't like being too hot but i really hate being too cold. like yeah that's not good for me. [well no]. and clearly being one who doesn't have a lot of insulation on her i'd get cold easily anyway. even though i know why it always amazes me that Jenn and Kristina [who presumably weigh more than i do. i'm slightly smaller than they are] aren't like shivering in the 60 degree house.