I Hate Waking Up Like This in Me Being Me

I am getting use to waking up cold because then I just turn on the oven and wear my heated vest and then the heating pad goes on. I figure that is about $20.00 of electricity more then what she would like it to be. But like I told her my comfort is important because if it gets any colder then she won’t be getting rent because I will end up in the hospital with hypothermia.
And I woke up with a headache and my stomache feels queezy so I am not sure if I will puke or not but I have my bowl here just incase.
Everyday so far I have been in a horrible mood and just want to kill who ever comes close to me but I have to remeber that it’s not her and I have to be nice. But I have never hated anyone as much as I hate her and to top it off she still does what she wants. And me I am stuck here with her abuses. I figure that she is abusing me by ommission and her not communicating to me is the big one. Like yesterday the heat was at 70 but there was no actual hot air comming from the vents and that is because the vets are blocked. And I did tell her this a few times but she didin’t listen to me because had she listened the furnace and vents would have been cleared and serviced. But now if it does get serviced it’s going to cost her about $300.00 instead of $150.00 and I don’t feel sorry for her either. In fact everything that needs to be fixed will be at the higher end because it got so bad.
I am just waiting for everything to either stop working or explode and if it explodes I will be reporting her. I am also waiting for the carbon monoxide to start spewing out.
It seems like I wake up a lot with headaches and every once in a whike my stomache feels like it wants to puke but there is nothing in it. I wish I could figure out why I feel like this. I am starting to think that it’s my enviorment and the way I am being treated.
I just hope IO start to feel better and soon. And my blood pressure is still sky high and I am getting more and more worried. But when the papaer I have that I am keeping track of my blood pressue I will be taking back to the doctor and then I will be put on medication for the rest of my life or until I loose the weight, which ever comes first.
I don’t understand this furnace and the controls she has to set the tempature. Every morning except for Saturdays there is noi heat from the vents but the tempature is at 62-68 and no heat is comming from the vents and on Saturadays at about 5:30 am the heat starts blowing hot air out of the vents and now the tempature is at 72.1. I have told her this and she says nothing. Is it not true that no matter what the furnace is set at there should be hot air comming from the vents when the furnace reaches that tempature?

Onto something else…

This weekend isn’t going to be all that exciting…Just the regular stuff and not much more.
and dinner for tonight is going to be cheese burgers and taters and carotts.

I need to stop here…
Do have a great day..
Be Kind, Be Calm, Be Safe and Behave.

Last updated April 29, 2023