oct. 2, 2012 in The Wonderland Years: 2012: 1/2 done

'Yes we had another fight this weekend. Sunday. it wasn't even a real fight. By which I mean I didn't bite or otherwise physically hurt him. i'm workin on it.

And now I'm legitimately angry. W/ him. But see I don't understand why. And of course as usual I'm blowing this out of the water. I'm a woman! this is what we do! well it's what this woman does.

So ok here's what happened. Bc of my depression I've wanted to cut. And so I told him this and also that I was having a moment [ptsd/schizo]. and he goes................  "so you want to take the coward;s way out is that it?". omygod.

He's right but don't fukin offend me. If I'm having a moment or want to cut or .something I want some fukin compassion. You don't have to like what I do or agree w/ it or hell even accept it. Don't offend me at that time.

Yeah but see here's the thing about that. You can't change a person esp. not a man. and he's one of those people who won't change.

This doesn't happen v. often though. But talking of often every so often he'll say something that really gets to me.