Blessed in Life Of I 2014

Ok so I know that my regular readers know about the problems my family has come across recently not many know about the depression I have been facing lately. It really seems to come and go and the most random moments. I have been depressed because I have no me time anymore. It's not like my wife or child are taking it or anything as a matter of fact my wife has been trying to let me have some me time. And although I appreciate it it just seems like I don't have time. Two guys at work quit. One guy quit while I was taking Emelyse to the hospital because he was "too busy". Fucker. Anyway I have been battling the schedule and work shit like crazy leaving very little family time or me time. It sucks. There are things I want to do. Need to do. But despite all efforts I am not able to do them. I want to work on my Youtube channel so much. I have been down in views and haven't gained new subscribers at all. SIGH But some things have happened that I am incredibly happy about. We've gotten most of our bills paid off we've got a lot of our credit card debt wiped out. We've been redecoration the house and I tell you what it looks real nice. We've still got to hang pictures and what not all on the walls but everything is coming around real nice. We got a carpet for the living room so Emelyse can play around in the living room now. We had hardwood before and she kept bonking her head pretty hard on it. We got a rug for her room I got a new BBQ grill that at some point I will have time to put together not this weekend but sometime. I dunno I feel blessed for the things that we have been so lucky to be graced with and I know I should be super happy about it but theres still a part of me that is depressed.

Smiles for all!

Later Folks!