Disappointed is an understatement in Torridaussity Two

I finally got an appointment with a therapist and waited 2 months for it and what happens I am sitting waiting at my computer (it was an online appointment) for 20 minutes only to get a message that the provider is not going to take the appointment and to reschedule. Well I won’t be rescheduling with her because that was rude and unprofessional. Two months to cancel and you make me sit and wait 20 minutes, I was so upset I burst into tears. If you’ve been reading me at all this past year and a half you know how much I needed this. I am struggling with my day to day life, work, relationship, finances etc. I am a big freaking mess and now this. I know God doesn’t give us more than we can handle, but his faith in me is way stronger than my faith in myself. I am just one wave away from drowning in the ocean of despair. I am treading water, but I don’t know how long I can keep doing this. I am going to try and see if I can find someone else. It’s all I can do.