stuck in addressing the public

i can’t give myself grace
would someone else be more kind?
and with each passing day
i feel further behind

the shame that i feel
for things that once felt so easy
as simple as silence
as automatic as breathing

now laborious struggles
it’s like walking on glass
to do something familiar
but i had shoes in the past

and i don’t want to fight
and i don’t want to give up
but the fear is so blinding and now i’m just

stuck