Going To The Doctor in Me Being Me

Today I get to get the wax put of my ears so I can hear what some people are saying and not have to ask them what they said and to repeat themselves. And the volume of the TV can be turned down so the lanlady doesn’t phone me to turn down the sound. But I am not going to tell her any of this. I want to see if she notices on her own. And I am also waiting for a V5 batter for my new headphones which I should get tomorrow.
I think I figured out why I am so depressed and fat and cold and too hot. First of all when I was doing my weight loss program I needed to be a part of the zoom thing and I couldn’t because my internet would not let me see and sometimes hear what my group was saing or what the leader was ssaying so I asked the lanldlady if she could get a better internet service and she said no no that was the end of my weight loss journey and I eventually gained all my weight back as as I was doing that I was getting more and more depressed. And at the sametime the furnace wasn’t spewing hot air out when the tempature is at 62 to68 and also I had to buy things that will keep me warm but I end up with heat rashes and I also get too hot wearing them.
And the reason I take naps and go to bed as early as I can is because the heat is on and I figure I can get at least a few hours of sleep before waking up anywhere from midnight to 5 am. And spend the next four or five hours cold. So I got smart and started putting the oven on at 450 and opening the door and then ny 8 am the room is nice and toasty warm and I turn the oven off.
And now I have high blood pressure because of all the weight gain and me not eating very good and not enough of the good stuff like meat and vegetables or even carbs but I am eating chocolate and chips and cookies. I know I need to stop those and I will. And once I do the weight will be comming off. But the thing that really upsets me the most is I ask the landlady to do things or not do things and she always says she can do what she wants and it’s her house and I can leave if I don’t like it. So when she does things wrong I tell the people who are the suppliers of whatever I have like the renatl people and the appliences that I have that are not working 100% And I tell the city when she is not recycling or puting things where they need to go. Like she changed her oil on her truck and she just threw away the oil container and the old filter in the garbage. It’s against the rules to do that and there are special places that those kinds of things get recycled. I just hope the company sees what she did and fines her for it because with her doing stuff like that and putting dog shit into the garbage for me is just wrong. Why she can’t flush the dog shit down the toilet is beyond me. And in the summer months I can see more bugs in the container but then she doesn’t care. She does what she wants and she is always above the law. Somthing like Trump.
Come to think of it I pay most of the rent and at anytime I can get that money gone and move somewhere else....But what I want to do is two months before or even 3 months before is withhold rent depending on how bad my health is after I see the doctor. But withholding rent I have never done and don’t intend to because I want to leave this place in such a mess that whatveer I bought like the element savers I will be taking them with me because I bought them because the lanlady wouldn’t replace them.

Onto something else…

last week or something the landlady told me that just past her so called fence that there is nothing but unstable dirt. And I looked over the fence and saw that the people who own that house have built a nice garden with rocks and a box type thing for plants. it looks very nice and the lanlday is either going to fix the rotten fence or take it out. I think a different fence should be put in like something made out of nylon and then it will be less maintaince and I will have my privacy. But she said too bad for the privacy it’s her house and she can do what she wants. And she doesn’t even know if the fence is on her propery line or not and she won’t have someone come and tell her if it is and she won’t go to city hall and ask them. And I think she needs a permit to do this work and she won’t get one. I also suggested to her to ask the people in the three houses if they want to help with the fence and then that way each home owner can pitch in some money so the fence isn’t such a big expense and everyone saves some money. But she doesn’t want to do that. i think the reason is because the fence doesn’t belong to her.
I just wish that she does something and gets into trouble and have to pay a huge fine and then maybe she would follow the law better. It’s people like her who needs to be stopped and do what is right. But then she says she has more rights then I do. But I can make this promise she will fix what needs to be fixed and if she doesn’t by the time I leave I will be taking her to the rental people and then she will get her licence taken away and she will be paying me for the health hazzards and medical issues I have and whatever else I can think of. And I will also have my doctor on my side so that will help for the medical issues I have gotten since being here.
The thing is if the landlady would just listen to me and ask these pros what she is doing wrong then we would get along just fine and then I don’t have to feel like she is going to evict me tomorrow. or even today.
Every morning I wake up I feel like it’s another day in hell and more abuse from her. She doesn’t relaize it but if she actually talked to me she would see how things need to be fixed and what harm they are doing to me. I just hope I don’t die because of her because if I do my parents will make her so broke she will have to go on wealfare. Then she will really know what being poor is really like and she won’t be lting when she says she can’t afford anything.
Alot of the things that need to be fixed are tiny things and doesn’t cost much right now but the longer she doesn’t fix these things the bigger the expense will be. I can see that and I can’t understand why she doesn’t. Or maybe she does and doesn’t care because she isn’t going to fix things even after I leave?

Onto something else…

My son is going to be comming for the day on Sunday and I am thinking of having a roast or steaks with all the fixings. And to spend some quality time with him. Hubby will be going to get his 4th booster for covid so it will be just me and my son. I can’t go for my booster till after my birthday is July.

well, I need to stop here…
Do have a great day…
Be Kind, Be Calm, Be Safe and Behave.

Last updated April 20, 2023