Unworthy in A day in the life...
- July 23, 2014, 12:04 a.m.
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I told a lie today. It was a whopper, too. I woke up really late today, way past the time I was supposed to be at work, and I panicked. I haven't been there that long and I was afraid of being fired so I came up with a doozy. I feel so freaking guilty I've been sick to my stomach and feeling anxious all day. I had to take a freaking anti-anxiety pill this afternoon, and I never take them during the day.
I know I can (and must) pray and ask for forgiveness, but I feel like what I've done is so bad that I don't deserve to pray. I know that's ridiculous but it's how I'm feeling. If I haven't been good, if I've intentionally done something I know is wrong, I feel lower than pond scum and like God doesn't even want anything to do with me.
I hate feeling like this.
TeineSidhe ⋅ July 23, 2014
I'm pretty sure everyone has done this, so don't beat yourself up too badly. Just make sure to remember what the lie was so no one catches you off guard by asking for an update on whatever lie-situation you made up and you have no clue what they're talking about :P