Write Writer in Meeting Mr. Jesus Christ

On my mind for some time has been a push toward the commitment to write on a regular basis again. Sadly, it is not making much headway. Generally I am too tired or just find myself not terribly willing to collect my thoughts, a selfish decision on my part. Along the way in the past few months I let myself be seized by several comments regarding my being "too religious", which included being judgmental and opinionated. I took time to consider the basis for such statements.

I'm back after a lengthy pondering of the notes left. It seems to me I will spend the rest of my life changing, hopefully growing, but forever with people who agree and others who disagree with me. At the end of the day I need to lay my head to rest after my prayers and know I'm on good terms with my Lord, or at the very least working to better myself. Once again it took me a spin with my self-worth to realize I'm not here to please anyone but the good Lord himself, and that is what I do my best at and desire the most to do. Anyone else who finds them self at odds with who I am needs to step back and move on. I have a life to live, with or without you.

With that little rant out of the way I come to think of my neighbor, Shirley. She is such a dear soul. Pray for her with me. She is eighty years old and has had pneumonia three times this summer, it's beginning to take it's toll on her. I just met her a few months ago, and it is selfish to think, but I want to have her around for a good while longer. I think she may be my Radical Believer, if you know what I mean.

I am still looking for a partner to share prayer concerns with and do a regular and focused Bible study. All summer, probably longer, I have prayed for and watched for a woman to become a study, prayer and accountability partner with. So far I am still on watch. Tis a dry season at this time, a bit lonely too. I keep in the Word and continue to ask God to fill these places in my life. Of course I don't know why He hasn't answered yet, I know He will. My faith is secure, though I have short moments I find myself contemplating grumbling in my tent. I stop that line of thinking remembering what happened to those who grumbled against Moses and God after the many good things He had done for the Jews.

My day goes on, it is a good one. I simply don't have all the answers. God goes before me, preparing my path. I need only to stay focused with my head up and a grateful heart. Everything else will take care of itself. Amen!