I Fainted? in Bittersweet

  • April 16, 2023, 7:12 p.m.
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I guess I fainted last night. Its happened before, um like when I was 16 and was mouthing off big time to my then boyfriend. Till he tried to punch me, and my best friend got caught in the mix ( BF was a guy) Then they got into it, and I fainted. I think it was the stress of the stupid mess. We were on an overnight away competition. We were competitive singers in highschool lmao. Not like regular choir and shit. We were competitive dance choir. It was pretty fun.

T said ive done it before here too. I dont seem to recall really. But I was off and on dizzy all day when I stood up. We were really active yesterday, I logged over 15K steps which is a lot more then my normal. But since ive been loosing weight, Ive been wondering if my blood pressure may be getting better? Anyway I stood up, Made it the 10 steps to my bedroom to go to the bathroom. I remember saying fuck and then nothing really. I guess i went down between the (solid wood) bedframe and ( solid fucking wood) dresser managing not to hit anything.

T said he poked at my feet a couple times thinking i was fucking around. Who fakes fainting? He kept making a joke about kicking my feet or poking me with a stick. IT kinda bugged me. A lot. Like your wife faints and your first reaction is to poke at me to see if im faking, Not run over and try to pick him up. I could hear him talking, I remember that the first time too. I could hear them talking, but not really respond. It took me a few minutes to get my eyes open and by that time he was over me. I got up and onto the bed after a few minutes but it took me about 5 minutes before I could focus my brain.
It was really weird. He was looking for the portable blood pressure machine we have but couldent find it. I checked my watch, My heartrate had went from 80 to 70 when I fainted but thats not too bad. My HR is always a bit higher then average. He couldent find the BP machine, but we are thinking maybe my BP is tanking because its not as high seeing ive lost roughly 30 lbs. Im going to need to talk to the dr about it. Maybe i can stop taking the blood pressure medication? It was barely high to start with. They cant reduce the dose, Im on the lowest dose, and i cant change meds, I reacted badly to the other family of BP meds.

Im still mad at him for poking me… I also get that i fell in a really tight place. Its not like there was anywhere for him to be besides at my feet or on top of me. He had to stand on top of me to try to pick me up. But yeah.

Happy birthday, I fainted in the room lmao....
My dizziness is better today. Not as bad, Off and on waves but not much of big ones with my eyes going black. Im not seeing sparklers when it happens, so its not too high. I go black. Which makes me think its going low. My lips kinda go tingly numb too… Unless its relating to the vertigo.
haha, If i could have SEEN the fucking neurologist again before loosing my insurance.. I could tell them that i passed out… But I dont have an appt till after i loose insurance… So ill tell my pcp and hope its nothing.... And hope i get my MRI done soon… :/


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