The "big trip" in General musings

This is the weekend of the big car show that F was talking about in Jan/Feb, when he was making it sound like a "romantic getaway" (yeah right) So of course he's trying to convince me to go.. Sick to my stomach at the thought. I know that I CANNOT go, but the stupid part of me doesn't want to let him down or hurt him....I think the time is rapidly coming to cut off contact.