Not Too Much... in Me Being Me

My perfect world is not perfect anymore. It once was where everything worked and was always in good condition. And when something didn’t wiork right it got fixed right away by someone who was a pro. And then I felt like I actually had a real home that I called mine. But now I don’t have a home because I have been told it’s not mine even though I am paying for it and nothing is getting fixed and what needs to be fixed is just getting worse and soon it will be beyond fixable and will have to be replaced and I will get blamed for that.
How do I make my home feel like a place I never want to leave? I think the first thing I need to do is clean what I can to the best of my ability and then maybe things will get fixed. I bet even if I do that things won’t get fixed because she doesn’t like my behaviour but then I have issues with my behaviour and she just doesn’t get it. But then she really knows nothing about me or has even asked me questions of why I am the way I am and what causes me being me?
I have also figured out something else… The wax build up in my ears will be a life long thing as far as I can tell. And getting hearing aids won’t help because the wax will block the sounds I need to hear. So maybe some day it will either disapear on it’s own or I will need surgery to fix my hearing. So the landlady has no idea what she is telling me. I like to think I am smart enough to know when someone is wrong and I actually know the facts. And when I don’t I try to find out for myself.

Onto something else…

last night for dinner I made this…

https://www.inspirationalmomma.com/one-pan-cheesy-kielbasa-pasta/

I liked this so much that I will be doing this again. it’s fast and easy and uses only one dish and the clean up is really easy.
And for dinner tonight I am thinking pork chops and some fresh vegeatbles and rice.
And of course there is the domestic duitoes I need to do and finsish the laundry and do some general clean up. Other then that there is not much going to happen.

I need to stop here…
Do Have a great day..
Be Kind, Be Calm, Be Safe, and Behave.

Last updated March 30, 2023