5 Alive in Current Events

It’s like a reset button goes off in my mind when I am sick. I am conscious of how I lose my connections to people, places and things and I can take advantage of it. I can create new habits and let go of old ones. Recently, I experienced this shift without my body going into healing and I’m not sure what I did to create it.

I have no interest in porn which is perfect. This NoFap journey has been the bane of my existence. I quit cigarettes, coffee, eggs, meat, dairy, processed foods, and a litany of toxic people and habits but this one has been the hardest. It’s been off and on all year so far.

I am feeling ambitious again. Passion. Alive inside. The only thing that changed was that I stopped taking ashwagandha powder. It’s a root. It is an adaptogen. It helps the body manage various stresses. However, I was not aware of any side effects. It can make you dead inside and unable to experience anything positive. TMI but I wasn’t even able to experience my orgasms. That has also changed. I don’t know if this is related but it seems like it.

There is no major life event happening as a result. I am just aware that my thoughts are different, my emotions are different and my behaviours are different.

I am in nesting mode. I seem to want to spruce up this apartment. I’m fixated and obsessed. I’ve purchased a few more plants. Trees this time. I spend way more time than I need to window shopping online for ideas. Pintrest and I have been best friends. I have been fighting with myself to stay home and not run around looking for things to buy for this apartment. It’s not like I have the money. Buying a thing here or there is fine. I don’t need to be rushing myself and creating a small debt.

I went over my finances which was a little nerve-wracking. I just got my first check in which I didn’t pick up any shifts so now I know what they will look like. It’s manageable. I can still make ends meet with no problem. However, I need to be frugal. I also got my big bonus from work so that is why I am “over-spending.” I already dipped into the bonus but didn’t expect it to be this much so I spent a little more. I’ll sue myself.

Speaking of suing. I got a collections notice for that parking ticket I am still refusing to pay. Actually, the language is important and it says DEMAND FOR PAYMENT which is just a demand. Demand is not compulsory. Mandate is not compulsory. Recommendation is not compulsory. I didn’t submit my taxes yet either but I owe. I’ll submit it this week. As for the ticket, I’m still playing with it. I know what these laws are now. The law of the land is still in effect but we’ve consented to the Vatican’s law of the sea. The judge is even dressed like a priest for Christ’s sake. They use the UCC, Universal Commercial Code, to get us into their jurisdiction. These laws are fiction, it’s all contracts. I never agreed to pay to park on a road that I own. I didn’t rescind the parking ticket properly, however. I missed the opportunity to authorize them to take it out of my birth certificate. This contract from the collections has all the banking info all over it. Just the portion they want me to send a payment with. They intend to take it from my birth certificate and also receive a payment. They all double-dip. With loans, banks pull that money out of thin air and then you give them it plus interest. Mortgages, they take that from your birth certificate, then you give it to them when you return to sign more papers. Then you agree to pay it again plus interest. Everything government funded is our property. We own the utilities but they are double-dipping. Everything registered is no longer our property which is why they’re allowed to take it away. When I renew my license in May, I will be using an authorized signature. This is will give a judge a way out should I ever be dragged to court, which is not a place of law but a place of business. Anyway, I’m going to attempt a proper recision of this contract and see what happens. Worst case scenario, I have a really bad day later.

I have a massage today. My friends want me to meet this massage therapist. Well, he’s an osteopath but I booked the massage because I am not ready for anything else. I’m a little nervous but that’s just the way it goes. I also want to paint today. I have that urge taking over me. Anyway, whatever. I am going to go do my detox bath, then my coffee enema. I might fast. I ordered a wrap which arrives today or tomorrow so that I can do castor oil packs as well. Those can break down cysts, fibrosis, and even tumours. It’s just another thing that I am adding to my radicalized detox routine. Diseases are not caught they are created. Terrain theory refutes the baseless germ theory. I’ve restructured my approach to health accordingly. We do not have immune systems we have detoxification systems. The body removes waste and repairs damage, that’s it. Anyway, on with it then.