Jake and dog in Second 1st

The third entry I had in my head yesterday.... nope Sunday.... was about Jake. He’s been in and out of the hospital with medical stuff. He’d decided that he wanted a job because it wasn’t working for him anymore to Doordash and be by himself all day. That was honestly great news. He’s a social person, he needs people. Then he got a job at Kroger which is within walking distance from Destiny’s. However, he’s now back in the hospital because he went nearly a week without sleeping and had been throwing up, no idea why. Not that I could help but I wish I was there. I wish I was there to get him a change of cloths or his phone charger or make sure his car was locked or play cards so he doesn’t have to spend 24 hrs just bored.

I started this entry before Rocky and I left the house yesterday. While we were out he just out of the blue asked me if I thought Jake would move here! What an odd question coming from him. I told him that it’s not likely because Cian. I asked him why he would ask that and he said “Because I want to make it work.” .... I’m floored really and I really have no idea what to do next. I honestly have always thought polyamory was for other people but here I am. I’m starting to get why it’s a thing. I love Rocky but I’m not getting what I need here.... and I would unfortunately also not get what I need with Jake right now. He’s not stable. :( Could you imagine them being in the same house? or zip code even.....

The night before last Rocky and I had a conversation. I will not be having a chaperone on a trip up and I will be going for 2 weeks next time I go. I also do plan on having sex with Jake while I”m there because again it has been 8 months since we last had sex and I”m tired of feeling unloveable, ugly, and no longer desired.

Also, we’ve been putting it off but.... we finally got a dog.... pictures to come.... so far she’s super energetic and i put her outside for a bit. We bought $275 worth of dog stuff yesterday but the adoption was free. She’s a Basenji mix and has been fairly quiet since we brought her home. She slept in the bed with us last night and didn’t get up that I know of. Also, I took her out to “potty” this morning and she went so I think she’s house broke. I’ll bring her in and put her back in the room with Rocky just before I leave. He’s going to have to get up earlier as she’s going to get horribly bored. I guess we will see what happens.