Time Passes in Still Listening to Spirit

Have I anything to write? Yes and no. Fourth of July was rainy, pouring down rain. Fireworks were courtesy of Hamilton Construction who shoots off fireworks each year from his own barge in the harbor in conjunction with the Chamber of Commerce's larger display. No Chamber fireworks this year, no certified technicians to do this, liability issues, you know...

I wasn't in the mood to go out in the heavy, pouring rain this year for the parade. The first I've missed since 1995 if I recall correctly....or maybe I did miss the parade the year I had my surgery.

Bill and I spent the day napping, eating and watching TV. I am reading sporadically but not so involved in the books lately that I can't put them down to do something else.

Bill is getting a wee bit stronger each day and is continuing to build some stamina back, not a lot, but much more than he had a few weeks ago. He spends a bit more time each day in chores. Right now he is bit by bit cleaning some mess in the garage and making some order out of the chaos there that has existed for so long.

I awoke today feeling useless, lazy, handicapped, dull, down. Weather, crappy weather. Too long sitting and doing nothing of importance. Not getting out of the house. My cataract is getting worse and I am having more trouble navigating on foot as my peripheral vision on the right side is nil. Lights and shadow, like looking at my reflection in a mirror after a hot shower---fuzzy stuff.

So, I got dressed, got on the treadmill and walked for 15 minutes at a very low speed. No distance, but my bones and body (and mind) needed stirring. It's the only thing I need to do to begin to crawl out of this whatever-it-is thing.

Oh, and SAD light, need to plug that in and use it too.

Better spirits tomorrow I hope. A return to more normal sleep patterns. I am either sleeping all day, or not sleeping. Either way up until 4am at least, then nap til 5am, then sleep at 9am, awake at noon, back to sleep at 3 to 7.....feels like I just sleep all day.

So, enough of this. Blessed be!