Terrified panic attack... *edit* in A Day in the Life of Me
- July 7, 2014, 9:42 p.m.
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... Yep that's it, I've officially had it with life and its constant fucking us over. Hes battling over selling or not selling the bike, and I am actually considering postponing the wedding, which sucks for the ppl coming from overseas... its a month away... still no money for the tent, still haven't bought the license, still got to pay the rest of my dress, the food, flowers...... not to mention bills, and rent.... Some days I just wish we could take off and run away from it all, or at least win a small chunk of change off the lotto..... Instead to save face I may have to see if its possible to get a bit more out on my loan, and he's looking to see if he can get a small one as well through the bank.. and then there's his credit card that's been cut off and mailing him practically everyday (Yes as in post, I swear I've taken a letter out EVERY DAY for the last week). I am at the ends of my rope.. I am almost to the point where I feel like hyperventilating, and I have NEVER been to this point... I've had panic attacks before, and I know I am bound for one soon.. this is going to get a lot more ugly before it gets any better I know it.. It seems all I can do is moan on here lately, and I am sorry dear readers, I really should just pick up an old fashioned pen-paper journal to write shitty stuff like this in....
I don't know what to do right now.
* Well its official, he put the bike up for sale.... no guarantees it will sell mind you but he posted it just a lil bit ago... Said that it was sell it to stay, or sell it to go either way :( why does it have to be this hard *
AlexYourAlterEgo ⋅ July 08, 2014
All that you CAN do is one thing at a time. Start with the loans. Make some calls today, and then that at least sets the pace for the rest. If you have the money, then go get the marriage licence. The rest doesn't really matter, although a nice tent etc would have been perfect, it's not a write-off if you can't get one. Just do what you CAN, and ask for help where you need it. You've managed all of this alone for a long time, asking for or accepting help is nothing to be ashamed of.
Canadian Lass AlexYourAlterEgo ⋅ July 08, 2014
yea only down side is, its in a month :(
Bomb Shell ⋅ July 08, 2014
So sorry you're struggling like this. I know you want the perfect wedding, but you might be better off either cutting back on some things or postponing it until you can afford everything? Sucks, I hope you can find a solution :o(
Canadian Lass Bomb Shell ⋅ July 08, 2014
ive got nothing left to cut back on, that's the sad part lol
fly away butterfly ⋅ July 08, 2014
I'm so sorry it's so hard right now it's not fair. Take care