Another Day. Another Loss. in Life Of I 2014

So if you read my previous entry you can tell that there are problems with my marriage. I love her I really do. But nothing I do is good enough. I went to church today. By myself. It was sooooo fun. No. No it wasn't. She told me we were going to go to church but I wake her up this morning and guess who doesn't want to go anywhere. Yet again. I'm on my last straw here. I can't take the way she's treating me. I cant help the way she feels. I have tried. We haven't had sex in weeks. And I asked her about that last night and she said I just don't want to have sex with you. Oh and my humor is childish and I need to grow up because apparently being able to laugh at almost anything and enjoying life is to FUCKING IMMATURE! Yes I use other words to describe a vagina yes those words are funny to me. there is nothing wrong with that. Not everyone has to be all stuck up and snooty the way you want to be. Oh and lets not start with the reminders that we are broke and she will in no way be happy until we have enough money. Which means rather I get a second job or I get a raise because I am the one who brings in money.

I gotta go