People. in Since OD is shutting down....

So I have super high blood sugar from getting my injection. I was told it will only last a couple of days but I didn’t get any sleep last night because I had to keep getting up drinking water and I was having hot flashes so I just couldn’t get comfortable. I have taken my diabetic pills and insulin but it’s not really doing much. I feel really dizzy, I have a killer headache and just blah. I am grateful that I have no back pain. Life is so different not having to worry about it and be able to get around without worrying of pain or like I’m going to collapse.

My kid was definitely being stressful this morning. I also forgot her backpack and didn’t realize it until we got to school. She doesn’t really need it but I was so annoyed with myself. She always has a snack before school but I was irritated when she asked for ice cream. I will not give her that kind of stuff before she starts her day because I feel like it factors into her not being good while she’s there. I also told her that I’m not going to make 2 different meals anymore and if she doesn’t eat, she’s gonna go hungry because it’s annoying and time consuming making sure she gets something she wants or she’ll just waste it and then want chips or candy. Um no.

I have heard from my caseworker and had to go get a dr’s note to excuse me for missing last week but they made it to where I’m excused until the 22nd instead so she wants me to call them again. I’m not. I’ve done what I could and I’m not driving across town again for that. She’s also able to reach out and get whatever information she needs and her questions answered because I signed a release so she’s able to do it. I’m just getting tired of these people trying to catch me in a lie or something. I’m also annoyed at how many times I’ve been asked about my daughter’s age when I just know they could find that out on their own if they think I’m lying so I only have to be there 20 hours a week.

Tomorrow morning I have PT in the morning and then Thursday I have counseling and then my other appointment at the hospital. There’s just always something I need to get done and it’s annoying. I’m going be so glad when I don’t have to go to PT anymore and I can start planning on looking for a job. I would like to get another paycheck before I end the program, I just don’t want to sit in that room anymore. I also feel like the longer I’m there, the less likely I will get a job because there’s basically no effort at all. I don’t like that.

I just want to feel like my life is my own. I hate all of this and ready to change it. I’m just so glad to not be in constant pain anymore and I feel like a brand new person.