I Got Nothing But Negetive Thoughts in Me Being Me

I have decided that I am really starting to hate people who I have to deal with. The longer they do nothing the more mad I get at them for not doing what they say they will do in a timely manner. But instead not do it for months and I am left waiting and wondering how much broken things will get. Like three months ago the land lady saw the washer leaking and told me when she gets back she will look at it. So just last week it was leaking again. And if I don’t use it there is no leaking. So I am left here wondering how much more it will leak and if there will be a flood of some sort. But I do sort of know what the issue could be and when I tell her she won’t believe me and tell me I have no idea what I am talking about. But I think it’s either the hose or the pump. The thing about my landkady is that she is so slow in figureing out what is wrong and then when she finds the part that is needed to replace she really has no idea of what place to go to and get it. And she really doesn’t have the right kind of tools to fix things and I am not sure she really is that good at fixing anything. Although she does fix thing for the time being and then when they stop working again she gets all mad at me because she thinks I did something to it. But I didn’t. it was her shitty work she did in the first place that created this and her laziness to make it perfect so it will last a lot of years. I figure unless you really know hwo to fix things right then get someone who knows and is certified. This landlady is not cerified nor does she really have the education of really knowing.
And now that she will be 80 I am wondering how much longer she will be able to maintain this place? And she doesn’t have a great memory and forgets important things that she has told me she will do. And I have noticed that she is a lot slower and getting things done. And not once has she come to do an inspection to make sure nothing needs to be fixed or just to have a general look. She said she looks but I know she really doesn’t see much, just the whole area and she doesn’t really get close enough to see any issues. Like if she really looked she would see the cauking on the edges of the kitchen counter needs to be re-done and she would see the reason why the wood floor got water damage. And she would also see why the bathroom floor near the toilet is always dirty and that is because there is a drip in the pipes in the ceiling that connects to her bathtub. And there is something wrong. I think that there is a whole in the pipe somewhere. This has been happening for more then 10 years and she still hasn’t figured out why. And there is suppose to be a cover of some sort over the whole where the pipes are but there isn’t one see the pipes can be seen. And in hubby’s bedroom there once was a peice of cheap wood that covered the water taps for outside and it keeps comming off because the duck tape doesn’t hold and I toild her to make something that has hinges so the board will stay. So far I have used 3 rolls of duct tape and no more. And some of the dry wall has come off of the wall because the tape rips it when she wants to turn the water back on. So for the whole winter this board has been not taped and the hole has cold air comming from the pipes and the area around the pipes.
I just want everything fixed so I can actually call this home and I also want better communication for the landlady and for her to follow the laws. But then again this is her house and she can do what she wants.
I am not going to have anything to do with her anymore and when stuff needs to be fixed she has to give me notice and fix things when hubby is here and I will be telling her no that I don’t want the vanity fixed unless it gets replaced. And I will not be letting her in if hubby isn’t here. But the thing is I have noi idea how to stop her from barging in and me telling her no and then she telling me it’s her house and she can do what she wants. This is what makes me so mad and so scared and I can’t do anything except get the rental people involved and I don’t really want to do that because for sure she will evict me for no good reason.
I have never hated anyone in my whole life like I hate her. Just looking at her makes me sick. She is one of those types that thinks she is all mighty and is above the law, kind of like Trump and I hate people like that.

Onto something else....

Not much is happening today. I might do some laundry but then I am afrais of the amount of water that will leak. But then the more water that leaks the more it will cost to fix it. And I am going to be making a beef roast with all the fixings and there might be left overs.
I didn’t really eat last night but hubby had hamberges and taters and carrots and I had taters and carrots.

Well, I need to stop here…
Do have a great day…
Be Kind, Be Calm, Be Safe and Behave.

Last updated March 13, 2023