Downtime in Meaningful

Mondays are quiet so I find myself pondering why I’m doing what I do. I’m at my stable security job. Almost alone in a warehouse at night. It’s spooky. There are problems that can still happen so I’m always prepared. I have two pending cases for bounties about to start tomorrow… I’ve got paperwork to do. My thoughts run wild and I have a hard time organizing them. Funny, as I write this I laugh looking at my life written down. Maybe this helps? Hopefully it can help me figure out why I chose this path after becoming sober. Wanting to do good. Helping people. Doing the right thing. All thankless stuff, but at times exciting. So many questions run in my head. Am I doing this for me? What do I get out of this job besides money? I don’t want to be selfish and don’t want to only do things for money. Maybe I’m just bored and use to the emergencies and bad guys that when I do get down time I don’t know what to do or think lol. I know when I’m at home down time is not good as thoughts of drinking come barging in. Well I’m off to investigate food possibly stolen from vending machines. To be continued

Last updated February 21, 2023