My Journey Recap in Current Events

I realized the other day that this month is my seventh anniversary of quitting smoking. The end of May will be my seventh anniversary of going vegan. I quit coffee at the beginning of this month also. I made a lot of changes over the last seven years. I want to write about that journey.

Back when I was young and supple, in my late twenties, I dreaded turning 30 as most people do. However, when I woke up on my 30th birthday I felt like I had a new beginning. I could make my 30s what I wished my 20s were. I wasted my twenties, as a lot of people do. I suppose I became a little more mindful of my future. I went straight to the bank to start investing in RRSPs. That was my big I’m a real adult now moment.

I’m going to get ripped, go back to school and travel a lot. I thought to myself. Those were my goals in my twenties, apparently. I was staying with my sister at the time. Her husband offered to help me out. Long story short, my saviour complex generated a nervous breakdown, classic me. You don’t need help if you’re helping. I was ready to make my move and live on my own again but I ended up helping them out with the baby. I owed them!

When my sister announced her pregnancy, I had an epiphany. I’ve had many but the first one was that we would all be almost 50 when that baby graduates. I want to have the energy to keep up with them when they’re older. I looked around at everybody else in my age group and they couldn’t run, couldn’t shit, couldn’t breathe. They were getting diagnosed with this, that and the other thing. We are where we are because of what we put in the past. The future will be what I put in the present. That is when I decided to start investing in health and wellness for the future. Mental, physical, and spiritual health. Thus, I quit smoking. That was the big one at the time.

I also started a self-improvement journey. Self-help books and podcasts and Ted Talks, oh my! Mel Robbins explained something in a Ted Talk that stood out to me. Everything has already been done and somebody wrote about it. No matter what is it. You can do it too! Basically, there are no excuses. I still had cystic acne at that time and nothing made it better so that statement inspired me to look up how other people won their battle with cystic acne. They quit dairy. I couldn’t imagine my life without cheese so I didn’t take it too seriously. However, my newsfeeds were all about how to go dairy-free and/or vegan after that.

On YouTube, I came across a vid titled Angry vegan raps so I opened it. My intention was to laugh at it. Vegans are so dumb they don’t understand $cience. The rapper got the last laugh. I couldn’t look at the food on my plate without thinking about some of the points he made. A week went by of me barely eating and so enough was enough. I was going to force myself to eat meat because I couldn’t go on like that. And so I did but then I had a 48-hour anxiety attack. I guess I’m going vegan now. I thought to myself. Then the anxiety started to subside. Luckily, there are a lot of resources online on how to create that lifestyle change. Did I win my battle with cystic acne? I now have zero acne and a perfect complexion. However, I am left with battle scars; acne scars.

I also signed up to see a therapist. I’m pretty sure he learned more from me than I did from him. He ended his practice but my goal was to overcome my social anxiety. I wanted to go back to school but my social anxiety was a huge problem while I was there the first time. I’m finally there though. I’m back in school. Just adult ed but big things have small beginnings. What do I want to be when I grow up? I developed a passion for using nutrition to heal. I wanted to go back to school to become a nutritionist. That has since changed.

I was also at a job that I hated. I was never going to quit it I needed it to quit me. That finally happened after thirteen years. I had a rare opportunity to take some time off to reflect and think about my life and my future. It was never the content that was making me miserable it was the context. That was clear to me because I was at the top of my game. As I explained to my therapist I am the best I’ve ever been. My health has never been better, my wealth has never been better, my relationships have never been better, and my job has never been better, but I still felt like I was the worst version of myself. All I accomplished in life was pretending that the pain wasn’t happening. Luckily, that epiphany didn’t wait until I was 50 to hit me.

I have something in common with most people who just graduated high school. They are the luckiest people alive. They can take the big risks. They don’t have anything holding them back. They don’t have mortgages, they don’t have marriages, and they don’t have children. They can do and be anything. The only difference is that nothing killed their dreams yet. I don’t want to waste that god-like potential.

I did a lot of my internal work. Spiritual work if you nasty. One does not come out of that with the ability to connect to the same people, places, and things the same way. I came out of it with imposter syndrome. This journey is neverending. It is painful and I can see why we spend our whole lives hiding from it. I have to die many times over. When you break down entire belief structures your mind has to grieve them. It’s all pain.

This is the journey I was on when con-19 started. I had just started a new job when they had to lay 75% of us off. My mind had blocked the memory of how hard the struggle was. I was forced to sacrifice everything and they just kept demanding more. Eventually, they demanded that I donate my body to a science experiment. I did not cave. I’m living myocarditis-free and I have no risk of dying from a coincidence anytime soon. You know it’s bad when the normies are the ones saying that there are aliens invading us and it is the conspiracy theorists denying that. I digress.

I was just trying to reconnect to the world again when the whole world went mad. Turns out, I was a media/political/medical heretic because I was actually using discernment when it came to con-19. A lot of people discovered that con-19 was a hoax but I dug deep enough to discover that germ theory itself was the hoax. It’s baseless pseudoscience. Unscientific. They will never say scientific, just the science because they cannot make that claim. They do not have the science. Their proof is that a sick sample from an “infected” person will kill healthy kidney cells in a dish. A multi-trillion dollar industry is built on that but it’s been debunked. Scientific method is its undoing. Those kidney cells do not need a sick sample to die because their process of “isolation” is just a process of decay with a fancy name. Those cells were poisoned by antibiotics and then starved to death. Terrain theory is proven. Damage to cells and disease is caused by toxic waste and nutritional deficiencies and not by virus possession.

I was called a conspiracy theorist, for the first time, for stating the fact, which I thought was common sense, that obesity is caused by poor lifestyle choices. That fact is relevant because 94% of the people dying from the event that we called covid had obesity. Each year in America, 700k people die from heart disease, 600k from diabetes, and 300k from obesity. These are the most preventable diseases. These are treatable and/or reversible with better lifestyle choices but we have accepted, as a society, that we are all born pharmaceutical deficient. This is madness. Speaking of madness, how many people each year are now going to die from con-19 vaccine-related coincidence? Just have to look at the sum of all causes of death and compare it to the sum of the years prior. That excess has everybody “stumped.”

Everybody is self-harming. That is what terrain theory reveals. Disease is not caught, it is created. The recipe is simple. When you put things in your body that do not belong there your body will remove them and repair the damage. That is what our symptoms are trying to perform. When we suppress the symptoms instead of supporting them the toxic waste has to seep deeper into the tissues. This creates all those disease states we all know and love. Mainstream healthcare uses the disease category which complicates the picture. Each symptom is a brand new disease when it is all the same. Toxemia. We don’t have to like the truth. It is in effect either way. The only victims are the children. Parents will do anything to protect their kids except research what their doctors are actually doing to them.

When I discovered the real cause of disease, I knew what to go back to school for. I am aiming to be a naturopath. There are a few things I want to do with that degree. I want to create a non-profit and teach indigenous communities the science behind their old ways of healing. I will do TedTalks, host events, go to schools, I’ll go anywhere where people will have me so that I can get the truth out to those who are not cognitively defunct.

Anyway, whatever.