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- July 2, 2014, 9:12 a.m.
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I'm at a crossing point in my life. I don't like making choices, but I feel like if I stay complacent much longer I am going to wake up and be 52 and wonder where the hell the last 20 years went to.
I have this big fancy master's degree. I am working a job that just requires a high school diploma. I love my work place. They are flexible with my schedule, they leave me alone, I have great coworkers, etc. Downside, I am not making tons of money. I am surviving, but pay check to pay check.
I am still in St. Louis. I don't love this city. I don't really feel like "home" is here. I have been here for 7 years now. I have made some good friends, If I got in a car wreck I have people I could call. But they are getting older and moving on with adult lives (kids, moving to the burbs). I am still in an apartment with a roommate.
The roommate thing is hard. I've lived with Amanda for 4 years now. I hate to admit it, but I am financially tied to her now. I couldn't afford to live alone. She makes more money than me and has "spoiled me" with paying all the bills and I just give her a flat amount each month. So to move out and all of a sudden be responsible for all bills, I don't think I could do it. I really couldn't do it on my current salary.
I would also like to be closer to my family. My mom and stepdad are talking about moving to Kansas. I like Kansas. I've always had a wonderful time there. I think I would move to Kansas City, MO. But the problem is, moving is expensive.
So I am in this weird place where I am financially trapped to my roommate and not sure If I want to leave or stay.
But I just need some kinda of change. Maybe I should shave my chest. That would be different, no?
Deleted user ⋅ July 02, 2014
Sounds like you're in that same godawful place we all find ourselves eventually....face the big bad prospect of "growing up" (oh god how depressing..what if i cant do it...what if it sucks and i have to face the realization that its going to suck for the rest of my life?), or staying in this unacceptable place of low-class dependency...which really isn't an option, is it?
Onward and upward Josh...Good luck...
~Octopussy~ ⋅ July 02, 2014
Changing my life is something I have done quite often. It's difficult and requires a lot of patience, but the rewards are worth it. You will find a way to make it better, I have faith in that.
BentnotBroken ⋅ July 03, 2014
I remember well the point you are at. Its time to look for another position and use what you have worked so hard for. Scary? Yes. But, you will never reach your full potential until you try being a stand alone adult. Best of luck! :-)
Deleted user ⋅ October 08, 2014
Kansas City is pretty awesome. I've been there a few times. Saw Usher in concert there at the Sprint Center once LOL Hope you're doing ok, man. It's been awhile.