First day back to school-- 116 days until Graduation!!! in My life

7:31 AM. Until 7:55 AM realistically, I want 21 minutes of studying. Made it.

I was talking about how I would keep it all to myself and wouldn’t talk to my husband… last night, I spilled it all to him anyway. My little dream of studying science. For years I’ve been interested, I guess, although right now that path has all but disappeared. I was too scared and impatient. But I don’t want to not take the chance NOW. I don’t want to be 40 and still regretting things and wishing I could go back and take science classes.

He was kind and supportive of me like he always is. I always feel like the biggest noose he’s put his head into was when he became smitten with me. In the morning, I heard him waking up and I just wanted to hide in bed. I felt so embarrassed for having shared my secret desires like that. But I guess it’s a good thing. It’s a good sign.

Okay. 10:22 AM right now. 1 hour from when I was done with classes!!! Until 5:25 PM, I want 6.5 hours of working. But let’s break it down.

Until 12 PM: 1 hour 30 minutes of working. Result: 21 minutes short. Ugh. Not good.

So far, I have studied for approximately 3 hours. Since 10:30 AM!!

3:55 PM now. Until 5:30 PM I’m seriously going for 1 hour 25 minutes of work.
25 minutes short hahaha.

Anyway. Got a B+ and two A’s. If I have to drop clinic, then I’ll just take Accounting and just have the business concentration. 3.494 is my current GPA. I think it’s learned helplessness that law school caused me. I guess I’ll have to make it my goal to graduate with a 3.5-ish.

OR JUST FUCKING FORGET THIS. I WANT TO GO INTO PATENT ANYWAY.

I should start applying for clerkship, I guess. And post-grad job. I want to work part-time while studying.

11:01 PM. Until midnight, I want 55 minutes of reading, and ideally to finish my Corporate Finance reading. Or PR outline. One of those two, idk.

Last updated January 18, 2023