Crying does not help in My life

I should just try to remind myself now and then that… crying does NOT help. It does not help me progress in anyway toward what I want. It’s truly just a waste of time.

I cry a lot. I sob. I love crying, really.

Recently I realized that… if I do law school stuffs, I’m sad because I’m not doing what I want. If I do non-law school stuffs, trying to find something that makes me happy, I’m sad because I’m not doing my best in law school and so I likely won’t get a good job or a job I like or any job at all.

So I couldn’t decide and end up just crying my days away, accomplishing neither things I want. And then I get even more stressed and depressed. I guess I can’t help it sometimes but I need to remind myself of that very fact.

In other news, I took my first prenatal vitamin dose today. I feel like things are getting real lol. For about 10 days now, we’ve been watching pregnancy and babies videos every day. We’re preparing, I guess. I’m going to try to eat healthier than before. Maintain the amount of light exercising that I’m trying to do. And maybe drop a few pounds????? I’ve calculated that I need to drop 5 lbs to get to 24 BMI. BMI IS FREAKING BRUTAL!! 5‘2’‘ and 140 lbs, AND I AM OVERWEIGHT? I guess I’m overweight for being Asian. Next to my Caucasian husband, I keep forgetting that I’m pretty large for an Asian woman.

Anyway, prenatal vitamins, light exercising, more fruits and veggies, less red meat, zero process food, less sugar. And just read up on babies.