"Localized" goals-- 151 days counting down in My life

I’m not doing a good job with anything here. Not anything.

Okay. 1:10 AM. I want to work for 1 hour then go to bed.

I took like 45 minutes to have lunch today. Why? Okay. Time to work on stuff. 11:42 AM and I have until like 5:25 PM. So. 5 hour and 30 minutes of work sounds good?
Result: 1 hour and 10 minutes short; less than 1/4 of the time. So, it’s progress?

I should be ambitious. Like, I should make it a goal to finish ALL MY FINAL ASSIGNMENTS BY FRIDAY NIGHT or something. I want them done well. Plus hubby will be gone to his buddy’s place this weekend, leaving me free to do whatever I want.

I want to get work done so bad.

One more semester. Then I’ll be a JD. I so wanted to graduate cum laude but it’s unlikely to happen now. I have so much regrets but really law school is just the dumbest thing. Now I wanna go back to school. I don’t know. Not doing well in school takes such a toll on my self-esteem. B+ is a bad law school grade in my opinion.

I’m so screwed. Stressed. Argggg. I can’t stand my life. I just want to be done.

I can’t do this. I guess I should aim to go to bed by 1:30? And then Aim for 3 hours 20 minutes of studying?

I want to be ambitious but I guess I’m too weak.

I want to be done I want to be done I want so bad to be done with this ridiculous paper!!! Argggg!!!!

Result 51 minutes left. About 1/4 short again. Maybe that could be my permanent expectation from now on.