December 8 2022 - Midnight Thoughts in The Beginning

I have always been captivated by space. I could stare endlessly at the night sky, staring up into a world that is infinite, one that will exist forever when I am long gone.

To be able to stare at a star, knowing that this world is finite, knowing that I will never be able to visit that star. To never be able to explore more that is out there; I am bound by this earthly plane. Watching that star, wondering if somewhere out there something is looking at our star, wondering if someone out there wonders about them too.

Then, after looking at that one lone star, my eyes open up and more faintly illuminated stars are painted across the sky, where my thoughts cycle back to where they originated. It saddens me in a way, that I will never be able to explore everything that is out there, beyond our existence. I often think of life going by as quickly as a blink of an eye. A photograph of a human from 100 years ago seems so long gone, but in a flash we will be the ones who are in ancient photographs. Our lives are just a speck in this grand universe that is forever expanding. I hope by some miracle, that after my death, I will be able to explore and discover what I can’t do in this existence.