"Localized" goals-- 178 days counting down in My life

Maybe my localized goals need to be even more localized. I can’t just aim for 4 hours of studying then be 1 hour 10 minutes short.

9:18 AM. I want to study until like 10:45 AM and then go to work. 1 hour 15 minutes.
Result: 12 minutes short.

Okay. Tomorrow I have a Contract Drafting assignment due, again. I’m planning to stay up very, very late, again. But I don’t want to waste time while staying up late, as in sitting and staring until 1:30 AM and then starting to work. Okay. From now until 2 AM I’m planning on 4 hours 15 minutes of studying.
I fell asleep at 1 AM, while 1 hour 47 minutes 45 seconds short. Bad.

I NEED TO PUT MY UNHAPPINESS DOWN HERE AND NOT ON MY HUSBAND.