10/23-24/22 in 2022

Bojour.

So Mass General “invited” me to join their patient portal, I have my 3rd blood draw tomorrow afternoon and my mom is fishing for invitations. I feel bad not expressly saying I want her to come over early, but she honestly stresses me out and I feel much less judged alone. She’s helped a lot, but I didn’t ask for it and would have figured it out, so I’m not sure what to do with that; her help always comes with strings attached.

I’m definitely feeling emotions again as the meds go down. I need to find a new primary who can prescribe things and try something else, because I KNOW I can’t handle my full emotions, but I also don’t want to be a robot with no sex drive.

Guess who I dreamt of last night? That stupid ex-roommate from over a year ago; he caused me so much stress and negativity that it’s residually affecting my dreams still. No thanks.

I hope this all gets resolved before the New Year, because if my severance is gonna hold out, I don’t plan to start a new job until then. Disability got back to me and I didn’t have the attention span to read their pages of info at the time, but I got that they want to do an in-person evaluation. I agree!

Dad and my stepmom came yesterday and he put up the kitchen shelves, a painting behind the couch and a curtain rod for Mason. It all looks great!

There’s so much I want to do when I have my mobility back; let’s say I don’t plan to take that for granted again. I have a small feeling that I may even end up taking it too far and wanting to be fitter (although that’s likely wishful thinking).

It’s midnight, so technically now the days have changed. Considering sitting out on my porch a bit again before bed. I am NOT looking forward to it being covered in snow all winter. I also wish my screen wasn’t broken as fuck. At least bugs are dead in winter?