September 30 in The Beginning

I am alone in my suffocating bedroom with my thoughts and the lonely crickets outside my bedroom window. I suffer from tiredness, but I stay awake in hopes to hear from you. My heart has been shattered in a million pieces but my hearts yearns for you. I love you madly and I wish you could feel the blood in my heart that is full of love for you. I am the quiet night but you Anastazja are my sunshine. I am a lonely fool who wants nothing more than to be reborn in a paradise full of flowers and laughter. I would die in an endless eternity for a minute of your love. Oh Anastazja, my girl where have you gone? Your body still warm for the last grasp of lust but your soul of love has been stripped away. You are leaving dear, leaving not in a destination of living life, but you are going to a place where you will be used and abused. That is no way to live life. You wake up everyday a shell of yourself, no longer understanding yourself while I wake up everyday full of sadness because I do understand you.

Last updated October 01, 2022