Mathletic in Current Events

It’s like taking a fitness class or seeing a fitness trainer when you haven’t done any training in years and learning that you’re just doing the warmup after you’ve already given it your all. That’s what my Adult Ed class felt like yesterday. “Playtime is over.” I thought to myself the moment I couldn’t keep up. Then the teacher explains that in the next class we are finishing the booklet we are working on and then starting the curriculum.

I am not mathletic, I know that. I didn’t realize how feeble I was until yesterday. I was so flustered. My anxiety is still high. I just want to drop out and hide from the challenge. After my shift tonight, after I take my grandmother shopping, after my nap, I am going to study my ass off. I’ll feel a whole lot better once I drill this into my head.

What I have working against me is that 15+ year gap since I’ve been in school. I haven’t done basic stuff without the use of a calculator since high school either. My teacher is letting me use the calculator for the easy stuff. My answers are a lot longer than everyone else’s because so much of it I can’t do in my head, yet.

I’m going to have to live and breathe this curriculum. Become a mathlete. My anxiety is going to be high at work and I’m going to feel unhinged until I get to study. I do not want to even go into work today. I feel resentful about having to work for some reason.

Whatever, lol. This too shall pass. It’s just grade twelve applied math.