Cancer in Diary

I just found out my roller derby and PB friend Hypnotica died of lung cancer on Friday. She was younger than me and never smoked. I knew she had cancer but she didn’t share much of the detail and I didn’t realise she was so ill.

She had a son the same age as Harrison who just started school two weeks ago. She fought so hard for this baby and had to go through several rounds of IVF to get pregnant. She loved him and her husband so so much. I can’t believe she’s gone and I can’t even begin to imagine how her little four year old is going to process this, and her husband who has now become a single parent while dealing with his grief. Thinking of him losing his mummy and relating it to how upset Harrison was when his hamster died is breaking my heart. I’m sitting here in tears at work.

Fuck cancer. Fuck it in the eye.