Opened Up The Comments in Current Events

I managed to bring myself to look at my comments here on PB. I have over a thousand that I haven’t opened because of how unpalatable my opinions are. It’s not worth it to polarize with anybody about them unless there is an audience with people that I can sway. Well, to stimulate. I can tell a person the truth but I can’t make them believe it. My goal isn’t to serve anyone’s ego, especially my own. It is to serve the truth. I want to give my life to serve God and the truth.

To serve God I need only serve others. Only the truth can set us free. The world is going to need real healing and real guidance and I want to add to that when the time comes.

For mental hygiene, I stopped opening my notifications on my socials about a year ago. That carried over to Prosebox. I needed an outlet while I tried to process the complexities of the world because this journey is not an easy one. The only people who could understand how painful this journey is are those who have had to change at least one fundamental belief system in their life. You literally have to grieve the dying belief structures. One by one. We have to go through all of the stages of grief to get to acceptance. One by one. Most of what I had to accept over the last couple of years is not easy to carry. It’s heavy and dark. I was vulnerable, in a way, and needed some boundaries. I feel balanced enough now to take down that boundary.

That boundary was necessary. I am pushing through a lot of social conditioning and it takes a lot of self-esteem and self-confidence. One does not know what they think until they have to represent it in a debate. I returned to social media to try and get nuanced dialogue, in regards to politics. There is no nuance dialogue there. My account was suspended but I returned in some capacity. It was still a huge learning experience. I cannot change a person’s mind, however. They have to do that on their own. All I can do now is just bread crumb, as they say. Plant a seed. Maybe it will grow later, or not.

I am surprised to recognize users that stuck around with me even after I stopped engaging with them. They are still being kind. I am humbled and grateful. There is way too much time in between now and their comments so I don’t want to reply. If you are reading this, thank you! I was also missing out on some helpful tips and advice. Of course, there were also the not-so-kind comments but that’s okay. I’m making insecure people insecure and they need to lash out because they’re only capable of the smallest levels of thinking.

I’ve always had a weird relationship with the world wide web. That relationship has only got weirder. It’s going to get weirder if I ever get myself to grow a presence on there and create content. I’m a modern heretic, a philosopher of the times. I’m just witnessing the world around me and I want to add what I see to the various movements. Plant seeds. I have to think of the literary Jesus and how strong his faith was even though he knew that he was putting his literary self in harm’s way. Giordano Bruno, Hypatia, and Socrates, to name a few, are literal martyrs that taught the true word of god, astrology. The Bible is an encyclopedia of ancient cults. It teaches alchemy, biology, psychology, physics, and philosophy.

The physics is what I am slowly studying. It’s high concept and backward from what I was taught. Everything is light slowed down. Everything exists both manifested and unmanifested for we are inside of an electromagnetic field. We are one ourselves. The field is what we used to call spirit. It is immortal, it has no conditions and cannot expand so God gave us theatre, the aether. Saturn gives us conditions so we can have experiences and expand. It’s a lot to take in. Death is just door-aether. If we are not vibrating higher than the moon Saturn sends us back down. We tumble down and harmonize with the conditions of the other planets. This is where the mainstream understanding of astrology comes from, horoscopes and birth charts. We are not ruled by the stars, we rule them. We just have to slay our carnal minds. The ego, as the new agers say. It needs to take a back seat. Everybody is just running on their programming and cannot see it. We are too dumb to know we are dumb. Those not waking up, that is.

Anyway, I suppose it’s time I go to bed. It’s late. Oops.

Last updated September 14, 2022