Lost, having no direction in life, not sure what I am passionate about, really in My life

Lost, despairing, sad.

I wonder if in a year, I will look back at this moment thinking that I got it good or that I got it bad.

I’m also left here cleaning up my parents’ messes. And they refuse to take responsibility. I am the child. I am only 29, newly into a marriage. And yet I have to contemplate affording education to my sister who is THEIR child? I am too young to have to think about how to put a kid of mine through school. And they keep spouting bad advice after bad advice. Idiots. I am so glad I have gradually stopped listening to them. Their influence on me is just too great but I am trying to escape that and not let them control my life, my thoughts, my self-esteem. Idiots.

Yes they did nice things to me too. They are not mean, just very prideful idiots. Therefore, I am going to be nice to them and tend for their needs for the rest of my life. But I refuse to let them control my thoughts. And I will hate the fact that I am left here to clean up their messes while they feel proud of themselves for whatever delusional achievements they have got as parents.