Still a crazy cat lady in Life

I'm being a bad daughter today and not calling my Dad. For one I’ve been buzy all day and for the other I just don't feel like going through the pretence. Me pretending to care about what he has to say him pretending to care what I have to say. It is what it is. I love him and forgive him for the mistakes he has made but at this late stage we are never going to have a close relationship.

Wednesday was a struggle. We had a snack day at work and I made bad choices at breakfast with donuts and cookies but by lunch I had it under control with a salad and a serving of strawberry shortcake then I got a text from my aunt inviting me to go to their house of lasagna for dinner. I'm taking it as a positive that I accepted the invitation. In the past I would have said no because I wouldn't have wanted to deal with the temptation but I’m done declining invitations for that reason. I didn't get to 281 pounds because of spending time with family and friends. I got that big by staying home, watching tv, reading, and playing on the computer while gorging on pizza, ice cream, burgers and fries. I’m going to accept the fact I made bad choices Wednesday but I’m going to still spend time with family and friends. My next time to practice is Wednesday. Gina, Lainie and I are going up to Grandma’s for the day. We will probably go to Toot Toots where I will be able to have a salad but the struggle is going to be the dessert bar. I’m going to state here and now that a problem I had at Easter was all the candy at Grandma’s and I’m determined that I’m not going to have one bite of candy while I’m there. I may make other bad choices but that’s not going to be one of them.

The best part of Wednesday was the drive up to St Joe with Gina, Kenny and Lainie. I got to sit in the back with Lainie and we chatted and played the entire time. She told me that I had blue eyes just like her and her mama. We pretended to be birds. We were Robins, Cardinals, and blue jays. I love that little girl so much!

Good Things I did for me today

Ran 12.5 miles

Stayed in calorie range Played with kittens at Petsmart. We have 3 little black kittens now. I hope they get adopted quickly. We still have 2 black cats left over from last year that no one adopted. Poor black kitties. Always the last to be chosen. If I could I would have 26 black cats. Then I could tell animal control that I had 4 and none of my neighbors would be able to say any different. Lets see I would name them Azriel, Balaam, Coal, Darwin, Glinda, Salem.