I don't want this marriage to fail in My life

I’ve been married for 17 days.

I don’t know why I just can’t be happy. I let daily stresses interfere with my marriage. I’m just feeling so down. I don’t know whether I should express my stress to him and what’s the right way to do it.

I love him and I cherish him as he is a fantastic person. and he loves me. Almost like, unconditionally. I don’t know who else has loved me so much for my soul. I mean, my parents love me because I am their flesh and blood, but he is just… Why would he love me?

I just want to make him happy. I do. Will I do anything to make him happy? I struggle. Because sometimes I feel like I’m neglecting a small part of myself. But what if that small part is just pure pride and ego? Can I just let go of that ego and just be okay?

I’m telling him tonight that I love him and I want to make him happy.
…
Ended up didn’t and was just moody all evening. What’s with me? and why is he with me?

He is just an amazing person, why is he with me? It’s only been 17 days and I’m asking that?

I’m just down and I’m just not happy. I just want to accomplish things in life. Why do I put that sadness on him, too, though? I just don’t know how to process this sadness in a productive way, some way that is going to bring us together. My ego is just too big.