July 27 2022 in The Beginning

I woke up yesterday not feeling anything. Had no motivation, no desire about life, no thought. Just complete autonomous movement. I was like a machine, doing physical operations but no time to think. No time to question or ponder, just programmed to move. (Alarmingly, humans are becoming more machine than man.)
I was aware that I had no desire of being but I didn’t care enough to do anything about it. I quite liked it, it was a nice change to have no worries or care. I felt like I was a leaf blowing in the wind.

This evening I saw the sun set. A beautiful red orange fire so fierce drowning out into the ocean. The big blue, vast space that splashes and sizzles into the sand. How something so big, so powerful drowns itself onto the other side. It’s otherworldly.
All my emotions have come back, I smiled broadly and felt good about my life.

There was nowhere to go but everywhere, so just keep on rolling under the stars. - Jack Kerouac.