Email anxiety—my affliction for all my life in My life

Anyone else has it? I’m sick of this affliction. I’m sick of it. I feel like a terrible person. I am a terrible person, just because I can’t write emails timely. I have resolved so many times to kick this habit of extreme delay in responding to emails and messages.
The more I wait, the more the anxiety grows. And yet I keep waiting to respond. What can I do?
As a matter of illustration: I’ve been thinking about writing a dear out-of-state friend for 9 months about my upcoming wedding. It’s 2 days before my wedding now. I haven’t done it.
Once I resolved to take 45 minutes each day to write emails. That plan fell off the wagon.
I have realized that the more I care about impressing a person or keeping a friend, the harder it is for me to write emails/messages. The less the care, the easier it is.
Seriously. I want to kick this habit so bad.
Maybe I should dedicate 45 minutes of my day into answering emails. Seriously. If I run out of emails to respond to, maybe I’ll just treat myself to some indulgences. But seriously, I need to curb email anxiety.
I’m so bad. I’m really so bad. I’m so sick of this. This should be the end of it. The END.
(It won’t be)
(I’m just that bad)