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I feel like I should write, but I'm drawing a blank.

I have an interview tomorrow. The position is for a secretary at a design company. I'm not worried about the interview....I interview very well. I'm terrified that they'll offer me the job. Seriously, I was on the verge of a panic attack all day today; I felt like I couldn't breathe, I was sweating, and I was fidgety as all get-out. I don't know if I'm ready to go back to work in a corporate setting. Thankfully today was group therapy day and I was able to talk things out with everyone there. I felt much better by the time I left, but I still had to take 2 Xanax when I got home. Don't worry, they're only 1 mg pills.

Today I wore a t-shirt that has a little girl witch on it and it says Miss Witch underneath her. Benny was fascinated with the picture of the little witch and kept touching it and saying how much he liked it. Then he tried to pull the neck of my t-shirt down and said, in a totally serious voice, "I like your nipples in there." I pulled my t-shirt closed and got up and walked into the kitchen because I was laughing so hard. Three years old and he's already got a thing for nipples. It must be a male thing.

Still working on getting paperwork from various doctor's offices for the attorneys handling my case so they can prove that I didn't miss any work because of psychological issues. The times I missed work were due to the stomach issues I was having. I always scheduled my shrink/therapist appointments during my lunch hour, so those appointments had nothing to do with why I missed any work. Not that it matters anyway....my attendance and work performance have nothing to do with what Elaine did. AAA is grasping at straws, and they're going to do their best to trash me. I don't care what they say about me. I was never counseled or spoken to about my attendance or my work product and even if I was the worst secretary that ever walked through those doors, that has nothing to do with what this lawsuit is about. So bring it on, AAA! You don't scare me, you can't intimidate me, and I have all the time in the world to see this through.

This morning Amanda (the boys' mom) asked me if I had been working on words with Paulo. He's 18 months old and apparently he's behind when it comes to talking (I didn't know this). I told Amanda yeah, me and Paulo practice words every day. She thanked me profusely and told me she could tell a big difference. She said he's talking more and actually starting to put sentences together. I had no idea I was helping out...lol. She said it was really cute last night because Paulo kept saying "Mamy." That's what he calls me...I love it :-) This afternoon when Xavier got up both boys and I were sitting in the recliner and watching Curious George. Neither of them had ever watched it before and they were utterly fascinated with it! I told Benny if he was a good boy I would buy him the Curious George book. I'm getting so attached to those little munchkins and I know they're already attached to me. I am going to feel horribly guilty if I have to quit watching them. We'll see what happens. I just pray for God's will....whatever that may be.

Tonight's dinner was salmon and asparagus.....ruined by a trip to Dairy Queen afterwards...lol. Oh well, you gotta give in to those cravings sometimes, and I was craving ice cream big time!

Well, I guess I did have a few things to say. Huh. I hope you all had a fabulous Wednesday!

Much love....xoxo