well in A transparent lockbox

I don”t know if you think about me anymore, but whenever I get drunk I think about you. I think you were my first heartbreak. It is really difficult for me to feel close to people and to actually like them in the way that I liked you. I haven’t felt that way since. For a while, I felt quite stupid because you never wanted to let me in the way I wanted you to. It is neither of our faults. You thought you knew what you wanted, and I thought that I didn’t until I met you. I was all for fun and the rush, but something about you grew on me, and I’m sorry it wasn’t the same for you. You wanted someone new at the beginning, you were fresh out of love, but you didn’t know that you just needed to find what you wanted and loved without someone else. I love you even through your challenges. I don’t want to be with you anymore, but what I felt isn’t something that goes away overnight and I’m sorry if I made you feel like it did. You taught me that I’m not heartless. Genuinely, you seem like you wouldn’t care but I do and that is alright. I am not afraid to look stupid for my vulnerability.