I cannot live my life like this anymore in My life

I’ve had it. Tired of being sad. Tired of wasting my life being sad. Tired of suffering in silence because I have no one to talk to.

I just can’t. From now on, I want to do s*** with my life. I don’t care what the result is. I just want to do things, alright. I just want to do things. I can’t live life like this anymore.

For the next half hour, I’ll just do Quimbee and … yeah I’ll just do Quimbee.

I can’t decide whether I should take Family Law or Business Law Clinic. I just don’t know. I have no passion. I can’t predict the future. I feel like all my actions are futile, yet it’s even worse if I stop doing things.

Summer recruiting is coming again and it’s depressing because there isn’t a job out there for me. I’m too sad and embarrassed of myself. I don’t want to do this.

Fiance drove 4 hours to get me to DMV and back. So DMV was one hour away, but we got there and found out I didn’t bring enough paper work, so we had to turn around and back and back around to go home. He seemed tired but didn’t complain.

Honestly, what more do I want from life? Why am I just constantly unhappy?