They messed up my placement... in My life

The Attorney’s Office where I’m working this summer did. Man I was mad. Just as I thought I couldn’t possibly get any lower, it just got lower. I’m disappointed enough that it’s the only job I got this summer. Not my vision or ambition for myself but I have to settle with that. I’ll make like $3,000 per month with that. It’s not terrible to my standard. This is literally the best paying job I’ve had in my entire life. Of course, I want a law firm job. I just want it. Although I also found out some tiny law firms pay worse than a government job. But anyway, so then I thought, maybe it’s God’s will. I’m meant to serve the public, not be a greedy corporate lawyer.

I wanted trial or pre-trial work since I assume law firms care about litigation experience, so at least I’ll get that. I’m placed in Post-conviction. It’s fine, it’s more public interest work. They didn’t even apologize.

So then I see nothing good coming for me anymore. I don’t have the grades, nor the interview skills, nor the experience to make it.

Anywho, trying to keep it all from my fiance. I’m just embarrassed. I think healthy couples “tell each other everything.” I think we’re pretty nice to each other. I can’t imagine anyone MORE perfect for me than him. I’m just too embarrassed and sad to talk about this.