B+ for Legislation and Regulation in My life

At least that’s it. That’s all for an awful semester.

I’m not giving up on my dreams, but I guess I am allowed to be miserable for quite a while. You know when you think of yourself as something, and the reality doesn’t quite match that. You feel like you have to start all over again, which is fine, but I guess you should be able to commiserate yourself for a little bit.

I regret to have to disable comments on this post, and probably my future posts. People have been very kind about my grades-driven pity party. I know all of my kind commenters have the good intention of cheering me up, but I really just want to be able to talk about my real feelings regarding this. I just want to be sad. I have been trying every day to pick myself up and go to work, spend time with my fiancé and make him feel cared for although I want to fall apart, help my poor sister. I want to try hard to keep going in the world. This is the absolutely LAST place on earth where I can talk so some human ears about my sadness. I don’t want that taken from me also, I’m sorry. I know you mean the best when you say “Cheer up” but it’s just, I’ve been “cheering” all day already, I just I want this space to be true to what I’m thinking and feeling. When everyone “disagrees” with what I’m feeling, I feel like censoring myself as well.

I’m a pretty normal person. No psych problem or anything. I just want a space to express my true feelings. It doesn’t matter to me here if my feelings are also “true” to someone else.