Crying... in My life

… about my grades, oh yeah. At 29 years old. How pathetic is that? I just laid in bed and cried for a whole hour today. I did feel better afterwards. Still, other grades are coming in so I’m not done yet. It just wasn’t at all a good semester. Fortunately, he was at work. I will try to not let him see it, but if he does, I won’t tell him why. Keeping everything, absolutely everything to myself now.

You know my reaction to grades in law school isn’t unheard of, though. They even have hotlines specifically for law students who are distressed about grades (I tried it once, my call didn’t go anywhere though).

Maybe I will hate being a lawyer. Whatever, I am not going back to school. I want to work and make $$$ even if I hate the job. I am getting married really soon and we want to have a couple kids. I want to be responsible and make income. I will stuck out a career I hate and try to find my identity somewhere else (ah, I got this advise from one of you kind commenters here <3). I want to be a good mom and spend enough time with my kids, especially when they are young. I think when they go to school I’ll for sure be working– I can’t stay home and do all the housework because then they won’t learn to do housework.

I guess I could be like a public defender or something. There’s always a need for public defenders. I’ll just keep my head low and work hard, and try not to have too much ambitions. Idk.

WTF A for EVIDENCE????!!!

My lesson: I should drop a class if I don’t feel right about it, even if I had spent $400 on the textbook. Also, NEVER take more than 14 credits.