What am I afraid of in The day to day

Well I kind of addressed this in my last post with the 20 facts about me. I am afraid of being paralyzed. I don't know why I have this fear. I suspect in a past life something happened that caused me to be afraid of it now. When I was younger I used to wake up in the middle of the night and not be able to open my eyes or move. That was pretty scary. I later learned that this is referred to in the scientific world as sleep paralysis. More spiritual people refer to it as astral projection. I choose to believe it was the latter.

I remember when I was 17 years old and had to have back surgery. I was scared to death I would wake up and not be able to walk. So as soon as I could after my surgery, I had the nurses get me up to walk up and down the hospital hallway. Of course I could walk just fine. However, a week later I developed a spinal fluid leak and ended up needing a second surgery to fix it. My eagerness to get up so soon after the first surgery probably caused the spinal fluid leak. After my second surgery I wasn't even allowed to have a pillow at first in the hospital. I was required to lay completely flat.

All of this caused me to miss the last 2 months of my senior year of high school. I didn't get to go to prom and I didn't get to walk at graduation. I also missed out on a trip to England, Scotland and France. Luckily I had bought the insurance for that trip and was only out the $90 it cost for the insurance. The money I had for that trip ended up sending me to the Philippines to see where my mom and uncle grew up and where my grandparents were still missionaries at the time.

Anyway, I am getting a little off track now! I'd say that being paralyzed is my one true fear.