Wild hair. in Since OD is shutting down....

So I was thinking last night after my daughter went to bed and I started to wonder if it’s possible that he could have sent in the paperwork to get enrolled and not say anything because he wants me to give him her information so he can collect her check as well. I decided to send in her information again because I’d rather be completely sure that he isn’t trying to fucking pull some shit.

I honestly doubt that he has but it’s crazy to think that someone would want to miss out on a $2,000 check when they don’t work and obviously need the money. Anyone could use an extra couple thousand dollars. I sent her enrollment papers in back in October and it’s been 7 months and a lot could have happened since then and I’d like to make sure that he didn’t go get himself enrolled, get his check but then try and pull a fast one on me where I hand over her information so he can do God only knows what with and then I’d have to stay in contact with him waiting for her check and may never know if he got it or not and even if he did say anything, the money would be fucking gone.

This guy has gone out of his way to not only fuck me over but be as fucking scandalous as possible. He never even filed his taxes because he wants to make sure that he never helps with his child at all. He’s told me before that he needed her information to get himself an apartment and food stamps. He isn’t looking out for his own child, just looking out for himself. I have no doubt that he could be enrolled and is just trying to make out with more money, even though he does NOTHING for his own child!

I think it’s bullshit that I should even have to negotiate with this punk bitch when he hasn’t paid CS in a year and also lied about being enrolled for years! Like why doesn’t he think he should have to contribute to the child he helped create?!! I think when the devil can’t reach you, he sends a shit BD!

Because of him I am so untrusting of everyone and am highly suspicious of everything people say and do. I seriously don’t trust a fucking thing.

So because I questioned my Mom being so pushy in coming Saturday, I didn’t hear from her yesterday. I also didn’t bother to wish her a Happy Mother’s Day either because I’m honestly sick of being the bigger person.

My brother did say the other night that BD is a lost cause. Well, duh! I’ve only said that a thousand times! I’m glad he’s finally starting to get it!! I’m annoyed that I wasted my energy to reach out to him because all he was worried about was seeing me and hanging out for his birthday and I know it’s because I’d have to drive because he doesn’t have a car. Well, I wasn’t about to find a babysitter and be the DD so I’m like yeah no. I don’t care to hang out with anyone where it’s just a fucking hassle for me. I also told him that he needed to be more concerned with seeing his child. He didn’t like that much and got real quiet.