Purge in Current Events

I had a decent week. It went by fast, at least. At work, I have been the guy finding all of the safety issues and reporting them. Lately, the store has been proactive in correcting them. It doesn’t usually fall on me to correct these issues but this week I was assigned with Mike to switch out some beams. The beams had too many holes drilled into them, they were too compromised. It was a big project, it took all week.

Mike is the guy that is hard to work with. He’s pompous. He is a Taurus, Gemini cusp. Stubborn and knows it all. I can work with any personality type but he can get too menacing when he starts to throw tantrums or runs his mouth. He thinks everybody else is unintelligent. His communication skills are just poor. Put our stuff around the corner. Will be one of his directives. What stuff? What corner?

Anyway, we were doing things his way and a lot of it was doing things the hard way. To me at least. We were fighting with one of the beams, I suggested something that blew his fragile little mind. It worked, it saved us an hour every morning while we did this project. He was praising me, giving me credit, which is out of character for him. Everybody says you’re so smart, I don’t see it Is what he used to say to me or about me before listing every fault that he can think of. Looks like I won him over.

I have been detoxing from the cult of politics. I have been feeling a little nihilistic because my country is still going strong with the covid cult rules. I want to be thinking about school and things of that nature but I am a prisoner in my own country. I can be patient. I prefer to be goal-oriented but everything is on the back burner. I can, of course, do some internal work.

I need to focus, I struggle with that. I can’t even get through my reading list. I have three started. I just want to lay around and eat all day. That would be my Taurus rising energy right there. The bane of my existence. I have all of the ambitions of a Capricorn but all of the willpower of a Taurus. I can work through it, of course. That is the name of the game.

I spent the night at my sister’s and had a movie night with my niece and nephew. Looking forward to that is what got me through the week. I enjoy spending time with those kids. It rained yesterday evening but we took our umbrellas and went for a walk anyway. At least the snow is all gone. We can spring it on now.

Anyways, I can tell that my body wants a deep rest. Depression. I need to surrender to the process and just spend a few hours in bed and let it run its course. Masking that symptom would be a mistake. I have a few things that I am not dealing with also, I seem to want to be in the mood to do it… which is a mistake. That’s my Taurus energy again. I don’t want to do anything that I don’t feel like doing. So I have to create some stupid ritual to make myself feel like it. I just need to be an adult and do the things I don’t feel like doing. I’m being existential again, oh well.

I really should open up the few hundred comments I have on this site. I’m so bad for not doing that. I don’t want to polarize with the cultists. Even though that is probably what I need to do, so that I can develop my own stances on things. What I really should do is get my life right already. Get some direction. Move things forward.

Anyway, I shall go lay down now and be depressed lol.